Is It True?

Is it true? Or is it just my imagination? I feel like she's somehow distancing herself from me. What did I do? I mean, hey, I haven't done something that might hurt her. At first I thought it was just me that thinking too much about it. But when I observed her attitude more, I learned something that hurt me. How she acts toward my friends and how she acts toward me are totally different. She's cold toward me lately. How should I say this. She was once a very close friend to me. But now that her attitude is like this, I'm not really sure what to do. Should I greet her normally and talk like usual? But somehow when I'm trying to start conversation with her, I get that awful and cold vibe like she doesn't want to talk to me. Then in one second when my friends walk in, she talks happily with them. How would you feel if it happens right in front of your eyes?

I want to ask her what's her problem. I want to ask whether it's just me or she does act like that. I want to know why she acts like this. It hurts to be ignored this way. Yet I'm way too afraid. I'm afraid of what she might say. I'm afraid she would distance herself from me even further. I just want us to be back to the way we were.

I don't want to be left in the dark. I mean, it makes me feel so troubled when she acts this way. Isn't there a ray of light, a ray of hope? I want to make up. Oh gosh, this trouble reminds me of the other troubles of mine. Allah, give me that ray of light, that ray of hope. Give me the chance to solve those problems and guide me to the right path. Give me the strength to make sure those chances don't go to waste.

What D said today makes me realize maybe 'that' is the matter. But it scares me even more because I know how serious she is with 'that' matter. I know how miserable she is when 'that' is involved. Now I don't even talk to her. Coward. Yes, I am. Running away from trouble. After all human is such a complicated being.